Happy Easter! And, welcome to the season of new beginnings. This is our opportunity for renewal or starting over. Recently (this weekend), I reevaluated my resolutions for the new year after being in a mental cocoon for the last couple of months. I’ve come to realize that my actions since the new year have not aligned with my thoughts, dreams, or goals. I’ve basically been in a holding pattern…sort of a waiting room. Basically, I’ve been waiting to start living to my full potential instead of really living.
While reading The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment by Eckhart Tolle, I have discovered I may be a “habitual waiter”. I want to improve so many areas of my life; however, I’m waiting for just the right circumstances. Unfortunately, I’m wasting my life in the process. So, I’m ready to pick up where I left off. I don’t want to wait anymore to start living. For me, most of the waiting comes from FEAR. The “what if” thoughts creep in causing me to stall and become stagnate becoming an observer instead of a participant.
No proclamations will be made at this moment about how I will go about leaving the waiting room of my life; however, reclaiming the motivation to exercise, eat better, and clear out all the clutter (physical and mental) will be the first step. According to Tolle, waiting is a state of mind. It is inner conflict between the NOW and the future. Everything points to being PRESENT.
I took my first step today. This morning, I completed a 20-minute upper body workout and walked a mile. When I weighed in (first time in months), I was surprised my weight was 148.5 pounds. I really believed I would have crossed the threshold of 150 pounds. Although I’m relieved, it doesn’t warrant cartwheels and confetti. I’m about four pounds shy of weighing what I weighed when I gave birth to my youngest son. And, he’s now ten. However, it is a start or a start over. Exercise and healthy eating must be part of my life like family, work, sleep, etc. It should not be something that has to be squeezed in or negotiated. Instead, it should be seen more as a gift.
“Most of us go through life as failures, because we are waiting for the “time to be right” to start doing something worthwhile. Do not wait. The time will never be “just right.” Start where you stand, and work with whatever tools you may have at your command, and better tools will be found as you go along.” ~ Napoleon Hill
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