Frustrated…that is the word that best describes me at the moment. Frustration does not equal happiness; however, it can motivate oneself to make a change or two. What is the source of my frustration? Well, my weight. My goal weight on September 26th was 140 pounds. I weighed in Monday morning to the tune of 144 pounds. UGH! Now, I have not been eating like a sparrow, but I also haven’t been eating like a Spartan. All month my weight has fluctuated between 141 to 144 pounds. I find if I exercise and have a good poop before I weigh in, I get a much better result. Needless to say, I had neither this past Monday. So, I have decided to abandon a goal weight until I can really make a commitment to change my eating habits.
I eat out of anxiety and my peak time seems to be in the afternoon after picking up my little guy from school. The key is getting back to my original resolutions. Part of not keeping my resolutions in the “eating better” department is not being a good time manager. I’m working on being a better time manager. I have been drinking more water. Getting up earlier has not been a problem since school is back in session. Going to bed on time has also not been a problem since I have been working every day.
While my weight has not decreased, my running has increased. This has brought much happiness to my life. I have been moving every day. I am running at least three days a week whether it is in the heat, fog, or rain. Today, I registered for the Middendorf’s Manchac Run, which will be held in October. It is a 5K (3.1 miles). This week I am walking for 2 minutes and running for 8 minutes…repeating this three times for a total of 30 minutes. Of course, this does not include my 10 minute walking warm-up, cool-down, and stretch. Next week, I am walking for 1 minute and running for 9 minutes…repeating this three times for a total of 30 minutes. The following week I will be running 30 minutes with no walk breaks. My goal is simply to finish this race in 30 minutes. The only exercise resolution I have not been keeping up with is strength training two days a week. It has been hard fitting it in; however, I know it is important. Again, being a better time manager will help with this resolution, as well.
Even though I am not hitting the mark on all my resolutions, I’m still happy with myself for making the attempt. It really is a journey. The real goal is to find as much happiness along the way. If anything, this happiness project has made me rediscover the joy I get from running. Running puts things in perspective for me. This is one resolution I’m trying very hard not to break.
“Remind yourself that a run will make you feel better mentally and emotionally.” ~ Howard J. Rankin
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