“Instead of focusing on how you got where you are, you’ve got to shift your attention to where you’d rather be. ~ Danielle LaPorte
I guess I had too much time to ruminate since the school year ended in May. It kind of had me in a state of paralysis. Regrets, fears, and failures bubbled up and simmered just at the surface making it difficult to enjoy the present moment.
Like many people, I struggle with the past; it creates a holding pattern for me. I stagnate. Procrastination takes over and before you know it, two weeks have passed and I feel quite guilty for wasting the time focusing on my shortcomings and missed opportunities of my past. And, who the hell cares? According to Danielle Laporte in her blog post on getting unstuck, “Sometimes you can’t see why you were stuck until after you get unstuck. Hindsight and high-sight solves a lot of mysteries. In the mean time, you’ve got a new story to write, and it looks nothing like your past.”
I’d rather be writing, scrapbooking, acting, and organizing my home. I’d rather be in shape, healthy, and running/exercising on a regular basis. I’d rather be spending time with my children, family, and friends.
This week I got back on the bike (don’t own a horse) and started doing things I’ve put on the back burner since I went back to teaching last fall. I’m walking again to get my legs ready for running. I’m writing my first blog post since August. I organized my office/scrapbook room so I can start scrapbooking on a more regular basis. (I’ll blog soon about the convention I attended in June.) I’m signed up for an improv class. I met up with friends for lunch.
School starts in four weeks. I must find balance this year; otherwise, I will get stuck again. I struggle with balancing my job as a teacher with other areas of my life. I do NOT like the way it makes me feel. Currently, I’m reading One Month to Live: Thirty Days to a No-Regrets Life by Kerry and Chris Shook. It is teaching me about “living the dash” in a more meaningful way. The dash represents our life between birth and death. What would you want your dash to say about you?
It feels terrific to be back. I’ve missed blogging. Wishing you, my readers, a wonderful summer. Happiness!
“Make the necessary adjustments for your life to become more meaningful.” ~ Danielle LaPorte
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Ohhh Katherine. Your blog made my day. I really enjoy reading your blog and hearing all the great things you and your family are up to.
I totally understand how you feel about working. Many days I feel the same way, which is very untypical for me. I’m restless, still hoping to find my way to a place where I’ll reach my potential. You would think after 41 years of working, I would have figured that out by now.
Glad to know that the book has inspired you. Some things will just have to wait so you can have some time to do the things you enjoy. That’s living. I’ve been trying to get the wash done by Thursday to free my time up a bit more on the weekends. It still gets done, but it’s done weekdays before/after work. Then my weekends don’t seem as packed with household “to do’s.”
Praying for you. Want you to be happy and feel fulfilled.
Love, Mary
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Thanks, Mary! I plan on trying to do more during the week, too. I’ve thought about grocery shopping after work instead of going on the weekend. Also, I’m going to have to get up earlier to exercise before work; otherwise, I won’t be consistent. Afternoons/evenings are too unpredictable. Thanks for the prayers and support. Love ya!
Bravo, my friend! Bravo! Beautifully written.
Thanks, Michelle! Your support means a great deal to me.